Yesterday I probably should have been preparing or sleeping or doing something mildly helpful but instead I was watching the sequel to “Anne of Green Gables” and loving it. She is a character that I like to think I am similar to. While many mightn’t see the correlation, it is there–the competitive streak, the stubbornness, the ability to hold grudges forever, the teaching career, the desire to write, etc. So after watching the movie, I went out and picked some sunflowers near the railroad tracks. I felt a little like Anne as I did so. As I meandered into the tall grass, I tried to keep my imagination from thinking of the snakes and various animals that could lie lurking amid the grass and stickers. I cut some sunflowers, brushing off more than a few bugs, and thought of how Anne-like I would seem as I walked home with a bunch of sunflowers gathered in one hand and a pair of scissors in the other. I was only missing a long skirt and a head of red hair. [Not to mention a gorgeous man in love with me since meeting me. Alas, no Gilbert Blythe for me. Oh, well…that is of little importance. 🙂 ]
The little sunflowers, now smiling and nodding happily on my desk, have been a source of joy for me this entire day. They are drinking up some cool, clear water and rest in a vase that I found at a thrift store with my sister. Pale translucent green and delicate, the vase dazzles with the beauty of simple wild sunflowers in it and the sunlight streaming through the window. I had prepared the perfect words for if my students asked about the flowers so that I wouldn’t have to lie and yet it wouldn’t be revealed that I live at home. I’m not certain if they even noticed them. Nevertheless, they brought joy to the teacher.
The Lord loves me through beauty. The beautiful look of attention on a few students’ faces…the radiant sun sharing its warmth…the intimacy of Mass in a school chapel, surrounded by youth…the successful completion of my first full week of school…the satisfaction of a classroom of my own…the anticipation of family togetherness tonight…music that makes me dance or think…the knowledge that I have two blessed days that stretch out before me with no lessons to teach…time with my sister before she heads off to school…the enduring hope and eager anticipation of Heaven. Thanks, Lord.