Confession: I don’t always enjoy praying the Rosary.
In fact, I often avoid it because it takes me so long to pray it by myself and I want to spend my prayer time doing other things. That might be borderline blasphemous to some Catholics, but that is honestly how I feel sometimes.
Last night, however, I decided to pray the Rosary. I told myself that I could stop and pray with a given mystery if I felt drawn to it. It was a minimal-commitment Rosary, if you will.
The joyful mysteries were the mysteries for the day. I tried to mentally enter into the mysteries: what if I was Mary and experienced the Annunciation or needed to travel to Bethlehem for a census? The interesting thing was that instead of Jesus being who was developing within me, it was a “Yes.”
Before prayer I had gone for a run and part of the time I was thinking, “Lord, help Your will to be my will.” So as I reflected on these mysteries, I thought of this desire to follow God’s will as a “Yes” that is grown within oneself. This “Yes” was what Mary spoke at the Annunciation–a “Yes” that took on flesh and entered into humanity, but a “Yes” nonetheless, one that she said with her whole self, every day.
The “Yes” does not lead to immediate results, however, Mary’s “Yes” took nine months of quiet growth before it was born into the world. Similarly, our “Yes” may not be evident after the first day. It might take months to begin to show. But when it does, it will noticeably transform us, even though it might remain hidden. We might labor to give birth to this “Yes” with our whole selves. But what struck me was the presentation in the temple. Even after we have grown this “Yes” within us and labored for it to bear fruit, the results are still not our own. We present the fruit of our “Yes” to the Lord to do with as He wills. Nothing remains our own.
After giving ourselves to this “Yes” and presenting it back to the Lord, we might still struggle to understand and find this “Yes” in the confusion of our lives. Mary had to seek after the “Yes” in accepting to become Theotokos–the God-bearer, she looked for Jesus in the temple, and she stood sorrowfully taking in this “Yes” hanging on the cross. It was a “Yes” that filled her entire life, one of complete obedience to the will of God.
My reflection on the joyful mysteries of the Rosary filled me with a renewed desire to nurture this “Yes” within myself. Not in one area of my life, but in all areas. Without even thinking about it too much, when I imagined this “Yes” filling my life, I knew it would be accompanied by an undeniable and nearly uncontainable joy.
A “Yes” to the Lord involves sacrifice, that is true, but it leads us to a deeper peace and joy than only saying yes to our own will. It fills us and gives true life.
But he said, “Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it!” (Luke 11:28)